No Matter How Far You Run

“And tonight you’ll try just one more time to leave it all behind and to break on through. Oh, she can take you, but if she wants to break you, she’s gonna find out that ain’t so easy to do. And no matter where you sleep tonight or how far you run Whoa-oh, she’s the one.” – Bruce Springsteen

Today’s quote may not exactly be the words I was looking for, but Bruce Springsteen happened to be on yesterday while I took a much-needed Sunday evening drive out of the City. If you read between the lines, and maybe squint just a bit, you’ll see my point.

There are so many things going on in my life lately that I’ve been feeling a bit trapped. When you step into a leadership role and make yourself completely available, people begin to heavily rely on you. A double-edged sword if I ever saw one. I love being everyone’s go-to gal. I love saving the day or solving the elusive problem, but sometimes you just get tired. Physically I was getting enough alone time, but mentally I just couldn’t check out.

Yesterday evening I hit the wall. I left my apartment and the republican in a bit of a hurry in search of much needed clarity. I just needed to get out of my apartment, shut off and reboot.

In the past six years, my home has become three distinct places: New Jersey, Boston and now DC. While my hometown may change, the one constant in my life has always been my car. We’ve traveled almost 100,000 miles together. I’d venture to say I feel the freest when I’m driving down the highway with the windows down and the music up. The open road offers endless possibilities. Together, my Mustang and I can go anywhere. (so cheesy…just so much cheese).

Sappiness aside, The Boss delivered an important message to me yesterday while I escaped the city, he reminded me that no matter how far you run or how many times you try to leave something behind, you know in your heart of hearts she/he/it’s the one.

It could be a person, it could be a project, it could be a job, whatever it is, whatever cause you the most stress and the most headaches, you keep going back because you know it’s right. You’ve found it, whatever your “it” may be, but now you need to deal with the growing pains. And man is it a pain, but nothing worth having in life comes easy.

Next time you feel trapped, put everything on hold, and take a moment away from your usual surroundings to clear you head. Go for a drive, take a walk, just get up and leave. It’s amazing the clarity you can achieve when you place yourself in the midst of the universe. Suddenly your big life crises don’t seem so big. If the universe continues to spin every day, and so can you.

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